I've been thinking of you.
Wondering what would be the best way to return to you.
Is there a wrong way?
blogging is another form of art for me. It cannot be forced. It just needs to flow from the place that all of my work flows. And if I force it... we can all tell.
So does returning have rules? guidelines? promises?
It's hard to say.
but let me tell you a story...
On a breezy October afternoon, sitting in front of her computer she received a phone call.
It's not habit for her to answer calls from unknown numbers but today she did.
A brief moment while phone connections flickered. She almost hung up. Then the line connected.
"Hello? Is this (name)"
She knew immediately that this wasn't a personal call or even a professional call. It was not a doctors office or political candidate.
The voice on the line was making a sales call. Specifically about the website. Hers.
He spoke and she could see where this was going, NO THANK YOU.
Did she know that her sight is TEMPLATE?- he spoke with disgust.
Did she know it doesn't show up in searches. Did she...
She did. She does. And she is happy with her sight. Thank you anyways.
But that doesn't work. The person on the line, has a script to follow, the job they do depends on how well people react to the script. It is their job, and she knows this, and she hates this dynamic. But she really is fine with her website, and she isn't interested.
So She politely stated that this was indeed okay with her. Thank you and good day.
She hung up.
That story was from today. In my real life. And it got me thinking.
Why can't it be okay for this space... my blog and website to be in a state of becoming?
I mean... for me, it is okay. It is more than okay. It is how I want to model my life. Being fully me, actively growing and changing and evolving, a work in progress. It is how I approach my art, my studio, my life....
I don't need to be perfect. Perfect doesn't exist.
I just kept thinking about the conversation, and how maybe my goals don't have to look like everyone else. My pace and timing is for me to set.
All this to say. Hello again. I'm here, I never really left. I just needed to write something that felt authentic and true... when I was ready. And tonight I felt ready.
Thanks for being here.
ashleymanley.com/Photos by Ashley Manley.
I love using words to connect with my fellow humans.