2020 Confessions

hello again,

It's March and I have a collection of blog drafts that I started and never finished for one reason or other.   There was the one I wrote about an exhibition I was in, it had all the info about when and where. Then there was the one I wrote recapping 2019. I have 12  total, they will probably live in the draft bin permanently. I had every intention, but things just fell apart.
I tried. 
I failed.
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Lately I've been feeling overwhelmed. Pulled in all the different directions. I started the year with a clear intention, but somewhere in between then and now I feel like I lost my way.   
On one hand I want to recap everything and bring you up to speed. On the other, I just want to begin from here and move forward. 
What will actually happen? Probably some messy combination of the two. 

Messy is actually a pretty good word for describing me. 
So... what has this messy artist lady been up to? 
A quick recap...
After moving into my new studio, I rearranged no less than 75 times. (It's part of my process. Constantly shifting and changing. )
I painted a mural in the ladies restroom. 
I had my work in a few exhibitions. 
I launched my Play! workshops. 
I taught a kids class at the Peoria Art Guild.
I joined the advisory team for Peoria Made. 
I created a logo for North Art Studios.
I taught an Olli workshop with Barbie Perry, creating a community Art Installation.
I took lots of naps. I went on some trips.  Some of my friendships deepened. Some have faded. 
I ruined a few paint brushes, broke a few finger nails and  wrote a few blog drafts. 
Things have been steady.
Things have been slow.
It has all been rather messy, beautiful, chaotic, overwhelming, pleasant,  exciting, frustrating, underwhelming, ordinary .... and everything in between.
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Now that I've recapped a little of the last year, I'm just going to call this good.  Let's begin again okay? 

And... to be clear, This probably wont be the last time I drop the ball. It won't be the last time I get overwhelmed or feel disconnected. But I promise to keep going, to keep trying.  
I hope you stick around. I'm glad your here.